A prodigal stare from you

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ME!!! Happily roaming around Dallas Park with Nicholas in the noon! Fyi, i don't feel like schooling. LOL. I miss my friends in SG so much! That i just got to know about Chantel's pregnancy & marriage!!! I really want to attend :( But that would be my mugging time!!

P.S: My professor said that he'd love to visit Singapore one day! Because i told him i'm from Singapore (and he calls me a babe) GIGGGGLES.

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AMAZING :)

It's 1.27pm and i'm home. Well, you'll never even guess that

NICHOLAS CAME ALL THE WAY TO DALLAS TO GIVE ME A SURPRISE!!!! I must say, that i'm moved by him :) I was actually on the way back home, just after my dismissal in the evening. Everything as usual, i got home and took a bath..there goes my doorbell. So i got dressed and attended.

I saw nothing, no one.

But a note that says "Meet me in your backyard"

I only carried fear within myself..I thought someone was going to kidnap me or something bad to me. I took my dad's golf stick and went to my backyard..then i saw Nicholas with a huge tweety bird!!!!!! omgosh. I was completely carried away, and i hugged him in my tears. I missed him so much.

HUGE ISN'T IT!

And so, i brought him in to visit Grandma Anne. as well as Grandpa. Nicholas told me that it was his first time traveling on plane, and still a faraway destination from Singapore. He did all these for me..how can i not be moved? I can't help myself but to cry in his arms again. Waited for mom & daddy to be home and daddy was shocked too!! We had dinner together too :) We gaze at the stars together, we laugh at each other again..i miss him, so much that i can't believe it.

As for now, Nicholas is helping to take care of my grandma, as well as helping grandpa with gardening and keeping both of them accompanied :) Grandpa loves him a lot!

Because summer holidays are here...Daddy gave both of us a present which we really..love it that we couldnt speak any words to thank him..he bought us a pair of flight tickets to NEW YORK CITY!!!!!!! Am i living in a fairytale or what? Nicholas jaws opened like he was gasping for air intensively! LOLOL. Cute isn't it xD Nicholas and i will be departing on 28th May, and will be back on 30th June :) Dad was wanted us to spend time together for the time we lost for past few months. My best daddy ever. Love him so much

I'm off to have lunch with daddy and Nicholas now!

ciaaociao

4.40am here in Texas. I'm still awake. Was studying earlier on and web-caming with Nicholas! hahaha! I swear i miss him.

Because i was feeling down, super down few weeks ago..Dad bought me to shopping. and he got me a prada phone. Thanks dad.

And im gonna sell away my black 16gb iphone3g. if anyone is interested in purchasing it, email me plz! m-tedder@live.com

Bought it last year, selling at SGD$600 / USD$200. no scratches.

• 3 new screen protectors + 1 intact(pasted)
• Stereo headset with mic
• USB power adapter
• Dock Connector to USB cable
• Documentation
• Cleaning/polishing cloth
• SIM eject tool

And he bought me a Versace versus bag. i swear i love it a lot :) he really made me felt better.

Hale bob Vero heels too! finally. <3

I know dad spent a lot that day..just for me. Thanks daddy :) and i'm desperately selling away my iphone!! please let me know asap!

I miss all of you.

Time for bed, nights<3

xo

I know i ought to be in bed now..but i just can't get to sleep. So i came online, like finally. Turning on my notebook thats says ''Welcome to Michelle's Notebook"

Login to my mail..and received a total of 34 e-mails from all my friends. Including Nicholas. I'm going to reply them now. I really miss Nicholas a lot. Days without him suck! I miss those days we had dim sum together every sunday morning! I miss hanging out with my sexy girlfriends. Nicolette, Jasmine, Lizzie. and my cousin, Eliza. I swear i love them all (:

Leave me e-mails if you're lookin for me or wish to talk to me.

Love,

M RiTed.

is super boring. Very boring.It's 1.36am now

Dad just applied private schooling for me which will cease effect next month.

I just wrote a letter to Nicholas..and just mailed out not long ago. Supposing the mail will reach him in a week's time. I miss him so much. More than anyone else. I also talked to dad about it..Dad wouldn't mind sending Nicholas here too. I am glad and happy. Because dad loves me so much that he'll do anything to see me smile again. I can't wait to tell Nicholas this news. As long Nicholas willing to come over, Dad gonna pay everything for him and for me. Thanks Dad.

Grandma Anne's condition is deteriorating everyday. My heart sank so deep when i see her, that she can't barely walk anymore. And been so restless all the time..Dad and Mom always tear a lot after seeing her like this..Which made me did too. But i have to comfort them. I hope my parents will be strong enough to handle this.

all the way back to hometown, Dallas.

It's 3am now and chatting online with Jasmine, Nicholas<3, and Lizz. I miss them so much that i teared at the airport in Singapore the other night before boarding my flight.

I knew time is gonna be long, and i really hate fate for torturing me like this. I just found my guy, and now we have to part. What the fuck.

I just got back with my friends for a month plus and now we need to part. (!!) Very nonsensical.

But the moment i met Grandma Anne here in Dallas, i began to tear again. Seeing her feeling so weak on her bed and can hardly walk. (she needs to move around with a wheelchair), my heart aches. She was still fine as per normal the last time i met her. Just a month passed, things turned out this way. Fuck man! Mom & Dad took long leave from work and came over as well. Though they still need to prepare proposals and presentations through online.

Here in Dallas, feeling alone. without Nicholas. This suck. He said he'd wait for me to be back..i'm moved by his words.

so love you. This made my day..

Gonna head down to market later with Mom & Dad to prepare a good meal for Grandma Anne.

To the girl i used to be, to the boy i used to be with. It's over. The story between Kevin Kamen & Michelle Rios, no longer exist in this world. 

"Perhaps we're not meant to be, though everything was a memory, i'll still keep it right here. God knows we might have the faith to meet each other again.Let everything ends clearly here, and not to tear, brave up. Farewell to you"

Faith, sorry. I do not have faith in this anymore. Thanks for letting me living in this sweet fairytale. Which ended yesterday morning.

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Thanks Lizz & Jasmine, for coming over to keep me accompanied yesterday. I'm glad that i still have friends with me, who will always be. Also Nicolette and Nicholas :) Thanks really a lot.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, my family. My Dad, My Mom :) They're the probably best parents i could ever have. Thanks dad for keeping me accompanied throughout last night. Talking to me, comforting me, and talking whatever he'd like me to know. It really wake me up and kept me positive. I love hugging dad and crying in his arms. Because he'll warm me up no matter how cold or lost am i. I seriously love my dad. And my mom, who have been really be by my side, making decisions for me and planning for me. Thanks mom :)

I <3 Dad & Mom.

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Day back in school, studies. Mr Jockwell was expecting us for History classes. Had classes till 5.30pm and Nicholas was stranded outside my school waiting for me. Sorry! Went to West Mall and had dinner together with Lizz and Nicholas. Lizz went back soon, and Nicholas sent me back to assure everything is fine. Thanks Nicholas.

Mom wasn't home but visiting at her friend's place. Dad was at work till late evening. He missed his dinner like wtf. So i decided to chip in some fast cooking of instant noodles for him :)

Gotta study now. Ciao ciao ciao

My life turned dull. Kevin is back to high school and needs to focus a lot on his studies. So both of us will be mugging for studies. Which means we can't contact often much anymore. Sad sad to the max.

I told dad abt it and he confronted me a lot. Thanks dad! Because Kevin will be coming over to Singapore, a short seperation bring our love closer and tighter.

I'll miss you Kevin.

It's 7pm and just daddy just drove me home not long ago.

I swear life in school today was so stressful. We had lessons frpm 8am to 5.30pm. Approximately 9 hours in school. Mugging, studying. Just as before, with Nicolette & Lizz. with our usual stationery. ipods, pocky sticks and pink dolphin drink. Was studying my History Elective and Social Studies.

Revising and covering our year 3 work. Alrighty, peace-d out.

Mommy prepared dinner and ready! Kevin will be online in 1hour time! So i gotta hurrrryyy!

Monday is always a boring day. I don't know why but ya. Ohyes, i'm happy for my smarty cousin, Eliza for her O levels results! 8points of prosperity! Yay. She's hypa and fully satisfied with her results. I'm of course happy for her too!

To my be<3-d Jasmine:

Cheer up darling. How can you get upset over a guy. That's so-not-you. In my eyes, you always have been a hypa, fun and happy girl. What happened? Where have my happy darling went? Come back will you? Your upset-ness thang should end here. How can you be in love, sadly? That is so wrong! Though he is upset, but you shouldn't go like upset with him. If he is, cheer him up! You're always cheering people up, isn't it? You're always like a rose that blooms lifes. But firstly, you need to bloom yourself up. Upset time is over. Michelle Tedder is always here to listen to you, no matter how busy or engrossed am i with Kevin. We're besties always..

Just received Kevin's e-mail an hour ago. An email filled with lotsa pictures, lotsa smiles, lotsa love. He's just so adorable. Love him looooots! This morning, woke up and had breakfast with my dad. Cream pie, Hot tea and Choco rolls. Sweet breakfast.

Called Jasmine, and just so..she isn't feeling good today :( She just like crapped on the phone and telling me how asshole her saturday was..Absolutely asshole-d. It was her weekend that she's completely looking for..but turned out a wrecked weekend. Was feeling like !@$#! for her.

Intended to go over to her place later :) and do crazy stuffs at her house. How can we just lazzzzzzzze the weekend away?! Like so what, even she's not meeting her guy today. Come on! It's just over for a guy! At least i'm sure i'll make a better guy to plan weekends well. (wtf)

Yesterday, was in school studying Chemistry with Lizz and Nicolette. Putting on our ipods, having snacks by our music players, is a fun thang study! Studied till 5pm and dad came to fetch me to Eliza's place for dinner. Mommy was already there helping out dinner. Dinner was yum yum to the best.

- mushroom chunks & veggie soup

- Fresh Potatoes, Carrots and Celery with honey mustard cream (GOSH!!)

-Baked beans with salted corns (!!!)

- Grilled chicken wings with barbeque sauce (!!!)

- Baby tomatoes with apple cubes

- Seafood pizza (!!!)

- Hawaiian pizza (!!!)

Dinner was great! I always love having dinner at Eliza's. I mean my aunt & my mom make good chefs. Dinner was freeking taaasssty.

Gotta leave now. It's late!

I do love Texas boys, especially the one named Kevin Kamen

I was chatting with him awhile ago. and we webcamed. And he did funny faces that made me laughed. hard

I am, tired. Really tired. School was hectic today. We had lessons till 5pm! My gosh. Refreshing us with all the work we've done last year and preparing us for our coming N levels.

Kevin pitied me :(

I got home, feeling very cozy. Snowy was by the door waiting for me. Love her. She is absolutely my sweetest thang eva!

Dad was home and mom prepared dinner. We had dinner together and Mom was talking about studying abroad after my N's and migrating to Texas, hometown. Though it really shocked me hell alot..i could only thought of, seeing Kevin is my daily life. I was happy. At the same time, i feel sad. Which means i need to leave my friends here in Singapore?! And i need to leave Snowy with Nicolette :( I can't bear to leave Snowy, seriously. Jasmine, Lizzie and Tris. My 3 besssstttttest friends eva.

So i'm talking to them now, wondering how they would suggest.

Sigh! Life is complication.

After 16hours of flight, i am finally home.

Missing Kevin BADLY. Though we're on webcam doing funny faces now. But i miss him like a total whore! I've met my dear girl out too! Went to church and did short prayers. Because i've not been visiting church eversince i left Singapore.

I miss everything in Texas, Anne grandma's cooking! and fun in L.A! It was outrageous fun! (is this how i form this word?) haha.

Life, back to school is boring to death. Same old thing. But lessons resumed today. Crap! I feel like a nerd now!  I need to study ups & downs for N'levels paper. Then, i'mma gonna proceed to Year 5, NA. Take my O'levels, to Polytechnic, get my cert and dad is going to send me to California for studies. This is my current plan.

Good thing is that, Kevin is flying to Singapore during Valentine's! Which means i'm going to spent my Valentine's this year with KEVIN! gooooossshhh! He is probably the best best best guy eva!

Now, i'm actually happy for my dear girl Jassssssmine! She actually, went into relationship, like finally!! After a year staying single. A YEAR! Hopefully she'll be happy with her guy. Though there's always something that even girlfriends can't give. Like a mutual love, from opposite sex. True!

I'll be having my dinner with Lizzie later. Ciaos!
 

is fun. is loving. is wicked. is awesome.

Can you even believe that Kevin bought a flight ticket to join me here in Los Angeles?! He flew all the way from Texas to find me! omg!

I told dad about it. I came clean with my dad and told him that i'm in a relationship with Kevin. He agreed. As long we're into a decent one. THANKS DAD. I know you read my blog too, dad. Thanks for being such a PERFECT DADDY. Love you the most.

So Kevin and i went shopping here. The stuffs are extttttttttremely gorgeous. But a little pricey. We had fun together. Dining together a Will's Diner. It's awesome.

I'll be back in Singapore soon. Kevin tear'd. Sorry Kevin :( Because we're going to part. really soon..You'll be back in Texas, and i'll be way back into the small country in southeast asia. But dad promised, during vacations we'll see each other. It's a promise, baby!

Time is gettin late now. Need to turn in!

xoxo

CRAZY FUN HELL IN VEGAS.

Vegas is one hot sex right now.

P.S: I LOVE YOU KEVIN.

Talking about Las Vegas, i am going there (again) on 30th.  One Republic's show in Nov 16. And it's a promise! I can't wait, like seriously. I miss Singapore badly too! and Snowy! <3 whose in pet hotel now :( I misssss her.

After Vegas, Los Angeles is the next destination. I am NOT boasting. But dad is bringing us to LA to celebrate Christmas. And i will be leaving Vegas to LA on 19th Nov. This year is perfect.

Remember Kevin? The cyclist i bang onto. I've been seeing him almost everyday. And we're moving into friends! Yes, we are! (sounds like fairytale) We exchanged numbers and i am so going to see him again! He is ccccccute. (Kevin i know your reading this)

Hopefully, one day when i leave the States, i will be able to contact you again!

I had a nice dinner with my family last night. Grilled party. Yuuuuummy. Grandma's salad is the best! Probably the best of all i ever ate in my life. It ain't ordinary salad. It's kind of filled with hometown smell. WONDERFUL.

I need to, turn in now. It's bloody late now.

Ciaos.

P.S: Dearest Jasmine, i am always there for you, fear not. I understand how you feel now. I pray to god to bring you smiles in your life.